Has anyone else been having a really busy life as of late? I don't know, I just want so much to be able to slow down, and yet I spend most of my days running around (even literally at times), doing one thing and trying to get another done.
I've got a job that mostly consists of me scurrying around getting carts, helping customers, and keeping the store clean. I go home and more often than not, I'm stuck with chores, and cooking when I'm not on the closing shift. I spend most of my free time in front of a screen, and it's been a while since I actually picked up a book to read it. I can't find the push to get a driver's license and sometimes I don't even feel like I'm giving my girlfriend enough time (she's doesn't seem to have a problem)...
Honestly, I'm not going to sit here and pull the whole "woe-is-me" act, but it's just way too easy to focus on and/or perceive negatives.
Sorry for the weird rant...
My thing is that I'll gladly do the work, but I'm always getting the impression that I'm not doing it well enough (even though people will tell me I'm doing a good job). It's just the setup of things that get at me. As to free time, as long as I can use it for other people, I'll have it. Otherwise put me to work for crying out loud.
I haven't fed any orphans to the best of my knowledge, but I do have a habit of....no I'm being self contradictory aren't I....
I do what I do. I enjoy what I do, but sometimes I stress a little. I don't sit around thinking I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders, but I try darn hard to carry it for some reason.
Someone recently asked me if I think people can change, yeah I do. It's probably not going to be easy to change. But commitment is what gets you there (Yikes, probably a big tangent...). Then, I started talking about how responsibility is freedom.
I'm going to stop since I forgot where I was taking this...
This. I remember trying to train a kid who had the audacity to complain to a cashier about his feet hurting.
I don't think I'm eligible and qualified enough to say this, but I can kinda relate. University is just getting so fucking hectic on me that I literally can't take it anymore. I have classes usually from 9 to 6 so for nine hours and after that, writing club duties, and after that helping out my (extremely annoying) "aspiring to be PhD" seniors in their papers, and through all of that, using the weekends and holidays to work on my own paper and studies.
But, you know what the most annoying thing is? Its that when you finally decide to get on the screen and write something, at that exact same moment, you get a writer's block. Then you end up replying to a pointless thread which in no way will be of any benefit to you, using up the time that you should've been spending in completing your contest entry...
Not really 'helping' per se, more like learning. You see, this particular senior is doing something pretty similar to me, so our professor asked us to like help each other out.
Lol. Its a way for me to gain 'valuable experience and insight in the laboratory', or so they claim.
Yeah, life gets busier as you grow older and more shit needs to get done. I know the issue well, I've like no freetime anymore.
Ironically, we spend freetime complaining on this thread.
Relatable, but also not. Life is busy, but I like it this way. I'm absolutely clueless and restless on the rare completely free days that I get, that I want to have something on my hands to work upon. But then again, I'm always also complaining about the multitude of tasks I need to do. So it's a never ending cycle. Kinda like it though.
Buy your girlfriend a turtle if you're worried about whether or not you're giving her enough time or whatever.
Everyone respects turtles.
I've been juggling work, family, and adult responsibilities since I was about fifteen (more than thirty years for anyone who's counting) so I haven't a clue what you're going through. And back then I juggled sometimes as many as three girlfriends at once, so you should count yourself lucky that you only have the one to worry about.
Right now, I'm still working nearly every day from sunup to sundown/seven days per week to keep customers happy, having to keep everything sorted out for my dad (medical and financial) long distance since his stroke back in March, do all the things that need doing around my place so it doesn't end up falling in or looking like a salvage yard, plus the hundreds of things that adults have to do just to keep on keepin' on. On top of that, I'm remodeling my house in my spare minutes so I have somewhere to live in my old age or else sell to buy something better.
One of these days, I hope to find time to write again, but staring at a blank screen or else getting caught up in Discord seems to be the only way I get to rest my weary bones. It's okay, though, when I'm shuffled off to the nuthouse or nursing home, I'll probably have more than enough free time to do enjoyable things.
And yet you rarely really complain or rant.
Sorry. I can't spare the time.
I think being a young person is just difficult in general, depending. Because young people's brains are all sorts of whack. And also college. And also jobs. And sometimes you find yourself in a situation where you have too much to do and it's all of little meaningful substance, so you end up being busy with nothing of value. How terrible!
I like keeping busy! Because my mind races a million miles a minute! But also I don't feel my feelings until long after I've felt 'em, so I end up wearing myself out something awful in the end. In college, I payed my way through while also lending money to my parents.... I worked 5 nights a week and went to a 9 hour day of school 3 days, so I only got ONE NIGHT of real sleep during them twinkly starlight hours at all! I think I gots real brain damage from that time, I did. Like an icepick straight through my pituitary. Remember, resting is important as well!
Right now, I'm trying to crawl out of an empty hole of deep dank darkness! The kind that ferments in your soul for as long as you can remember! And that sticks to your bones like glue! But everything is going extraordinarily excellent otherwise, so as long as I'm here, I really can't complain~!