I thought it was my complete laziness that has gotten me killed there?
Oh well, I'm dead either way.
Anyways, while I could write an entire essay explaining why I am not a lolicon, I would still have my insurmountable laziness to answer to, and I don't think I could so easily explain why I am as lazy, unorganized, or uninspired as I am.
Either way, I guess I will lay low over the next several months—not for I am at all ashamed of my tastes in visual novel, nor for I am at all unwilling to stand by my own words, actions, and decisions—no; if anything, it would be my inability to adhere to any sort of writing schedule that prompts such a decision.
Perhaps soon I will be given the opportunity again to face the people of the Discord server like I was once able to, but if not, I guess all is just as well; I can write just as well without the distraction (although I would certainly miss some of the more interesting times on the server).
Until then, I guess I will be alternating between reviews, writing, and unintended wasting of time. Just like old times.
It doesn't matter what you say at this point. You could write a 10k word essay and you would still be a lolicon, so I'm afraid your grave has been dug my friend
I beg to differ—with the right words, I'm sure I could change all your opinions. In fact, I'm completely positive that I can clear my name in only a fraction of that word count: one-tenth, a mere one thousand words to be exact.
Lawyers make their living with cases almost just like this, and they can clear the names of their clients going only off of established fact and law, so I don't see why I wouldn't be able to.
Although you may still have a point: even if I clear my name, I would still be known as "That lolicon", up to and after the next big scandal here. Regardless, I will not embrace the grave—not yet, anyway, and not from this.
I doubt it. If this is something you can do then FUCKING DO IT!
No, I totally am for this. Please. Please write another essay. Describe everything on detail, I want it to be a crystal clear image. Try really hard on it. I genuinely want to hear what you have to say. Get Pheonix Wright with your miracle pudding routine, go ahead. The people need answers!
No surprise that the shitposter always going on about gay 9 year old boys wants to hear more from the loli lover.
I'd tell you two to get a room, but you're both too old for one another I guess.
Lolicon is good at writing essays. They are very convincing. They should write more essays. I think they can clear their name. They should keep trying.
I don't think you, of all people, should be trying to call me out on anything. Do you even know a fraction of the details behind what you are trying to call me out on?
If you're talking about the essay, I'm 400 words in—I was not kidding, and I will not flake out anymore. I plan on writing the rest of it this evening in the library.
I will not.
Thinking it over, I have realized that this will improve nothing—in fact, it would only serve to do more harm.
So no, I will not. And the essay? Deleted. Gone. In the recycle, and the recycle emptied. I regret having ever put any work towards trying to please you lot, considering how pointless it all ends up being.
F is the word I think.
I don't know this guy. But If you say you will write a essay you go and fucking written it and show it to the Moderator. That fact alone is reason enough to be banned
Good thing you emptied the recycle beforehand so there's enough room for you to be placed in.
Lmao, it's just in refrence to my shitposty antics here and there. I think Ford/Chanbot made a video on it.
I'm pretty sure nobody here holds me in any uniquely low regard.
Look, I have said what I needed to say regarding your latter points. I will not apologize for my tastes in VN, and while I do argue that it is not comprised of lolis, I will not go out of my way to try to change your opinions on the matter. If you still find my reasoning to be flawed after hearing it, then so be it. There's nothing more I can do on the matter.
Now, my laziness I do feel ashamed of, and I do sincerely apologize for every time I was unable to meet a deadline or to review as many stories as I said I would. I try to make sure my stories are no less than perfect in my vision before releasing, and I guess that also causes me to make waste to functional, if ugly, drafts.
I do try to improve—but I say that a lot; all I can really do now is to actually act on it, and by all means, I do. If you think I'm a low, disgusting person, then I do hope to eventually earn back some of your former respect (or more accurately, tolerance).
Just going to press an L because that's what the thread demands.
Dangerous days ahead...
My Stuff » Private Messages » Well, I'm leaving. You win.
Date: 11/2/2019 1:03:58 AM
Y’know, I do respect you. You were a sort of idol to look up to in a sense, a model member of CYS if such a thing exists. In comparison to the other administrators of CYS, you are perhaps the most balanced in moderation and mercy, and time and time again, you allow others a chance to redeem themselves, even if you personally want to see them leave.
So why, I ask, do you want to shatter it all with the ultimatum? You have stated you are disgusted by me, and your actions do convey spite—and I need not ask why that is. But is that really why you want to force my hand at this essay? Certainly, I said I would procure it, and you are not wrong in expecting it, but I feel your intentions, in this case, weren’t the best.
Because you knew that such a thing would improve nothing. You knew that if I have not seen sense and actually followed through, it would have only made things so much worse. I don’t understand why you would want that. Is it to see me become more of a laughingstock to the community that already despises me?
Well, I apologize.
I apologize for having become lazy.
I apologize for being too bold with particular hobbies.
I apologize for failing commitment after commitment.
And I apologize because I will not be staying to see myself out of this mess I have gotten myself into. You have forced my hand, but for once, I do not feel like I must do the impossible, to try to earn back mere tidbits of your tolerance. I really did wish that it could be like before (even if before was merely a lack of noticeable hatred), but I can’t keep doing this. It drains me to be looked down upon by you and the rest of the community no matter what I try to do, to know that ultimately whatever I do will never be recognized nor accepted.
Why didn’t you just ban me? Nobody would notice or care. You would have gotten rid of me. Why must you do this to me? For the longest time, I have desperately tried to earn back what I have lost, unwilling to accept that I couldn’t.
With that in mind, however, I guess I have achieved what I have wanted. I wanted, even if temporarily, to truly be a member of this community of CYOA enthusiasts, and I guess for the months prior to my downfall, I was. With that in mind, I am grateful for that opportunity.
And also, I don’t think I’ve ever said it yet, but thank you for the Castor account.
Feel free to share this letter of resignation to whoever, or post it wherever—hell, even make a mockery thread about it, I don’t care because ultimately, for at least I’ve left on my own terms.
To conclude, I would like to reiterate: I do respect you and the community of CYS, and I blame none of you for the events leading to my resignation; in the end, I would say it was my feeling of inadequacy that finally pushed me to leave, for better or worse. Anyways, I will not be making a dramatic thread detailing my resignation, so I will rely on you to let everybody concerned know that I have left CYS.
Anyways, I've got writing of my own to do. Novel drafts to complete. I am glad I have had the opportunity to write for CYS, but I guess the time has come to move on. Best of luck, both to your endeavors in writing and to administrating, and please let others concerned know that I send them my regards.
I guess this is goodbye,
The funny thing is I actually banned him as soon as I saw the post stating he wasn't going to do the essay.
Mizal just double tapped his stinking corpse after Cricket and Thara had mocked him.
"Mizal, mock me like one of your retarded noobs."
I've wasted my life in the land of tomorrow
I've dreamed as the time has sped by
Those wonderful things that I'd do in the future.
Those glorious plans in the sky.
The work of today would be all done tomorrow
It was vision one needed - not drive.
I expanded my thinking, I broadened my mind
And the things that I wished would arrive.
I've squandered my chances, drifted heedlessly on
Giving time little thought and less care.
Those marvellous things would be mine on the morrow
Those castles I'd built in the air.
My career has slipped by with nothing to show
And the end is already in sight,
I wonder how different the year's pathway had been
If "I will" had replaced "Yes, I might".
I'm gonna use it as a form of 'encouragement'. Mainly for myself, but y'know.
This is my favorite.
Implying that Cricket wasn't already a douchebag before she got to CYS. Lol.