Zweihanderr, The Reader

Member Since

8/14/2021

Last Activity

10/18/2021 1:26 AM

EXP Points

29

Post Count

13

Storygame Count

0

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0 wins / 0 losses

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Sage

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0

Crawled into a place in my head

The only space where I can feel safe and sound

All that you've lived for comes spiraling down

Catatonic, emaciated

All this pain that you have created 

Battered heart, broken soul

With no other place to go

 

 

You can call me 'Z' if that's quicker for ya.

 

 

 

Currently working on one story-game; word count: 4.7k

 

Recent Posts

Corgi vs Fem - Vote! on 10/13/2021 12:37:20 AM

Yeah, I definitely have got to vote for Revengeance. I thought the story was simple and cute and did not attempt to bite off more than it could chew.

As for Ghost Eat Ghost World, I can certainly say the idea behind it was pretty unique and interesting. Unfortunately that is where my praise ends; the pacing and dialogue were the greatest problem for me.

As far as pacing was concerned, the story covers great tracts of time and important character building moments in a sentence or two; kind of jarring. 

The dialogue itself was not bad, if perhaps a bit robotic and erratic. I was more bothered by the grand wall of text since the dialogue was not used to break up the monotony of paragraph after paragraph, it also made it a bit rough to look at.

Besides the spelling and grammar errors, I thought both stories were fairly solid efforts; props to both authors for following through.


Rant Thread on 10/4/2021 12:39:05 AM

I can relate a lot to what you're going through Mystic_Warrior, I've been suffering from severe anxiety since I was around 13 and it got progressively worse throughout high school and afterwards; until I finally caved and got some help. I now take medication that takes the edge off, but I know I will always have to live with this damaged psyche. 

I hide it pretty well, no one outside of my close family (and now, you kind internet folk) knows that I cannot interact with other people without my adrenaline starting to pump, while I enter a downward spiral of second guessing every move I make. I bottle up all of my self hatred, depression, anxiety and push it down as far as I can; mostly because I view it as a weakness and a shame. I know it's not healthy, but I've made it this far and I'm really stubborn like that.

Right now even, I am thinking about whether or not it's a good idea to write this, since I never have before now; but I figure it could end up being cathartic so I'll keep going.

The only time I'm ever really comfortable is when I am alone and distracted by something I enjoy, (god, I sound like I'm on the spectrum) whether that be reading, drinking, video games or whatever else stimulates my monkey brain. I found this site about a year or so ago, if I made an account, I forgot it; but even then, I thought that this was a cool place of people, that I could maybe get along with and isn't overrun by children or a deluge of works that are poor in grammar and effort.

Anyway, I do agree with you on the high functioning anxiety part, although I think you get way more use out of it than I do. Just the other day I wanted to skip out on a class I was taking because I dove head first into project with no experience and didn't get it perfect on the first try. Pretty fuckin' stupid, am I right? Not to humble brag or anything, *wink wink* but I'm now the furthest ahead in the class; but guess what? It doesn't make me feel any better and I still get hyper focused on not screwing anything up I work on.

I actively shoot myself in the foot more times than I'd care to admit, I don't even like to blame it on the anxiety because I hate to think about how much of a hold it has over me.

But enough about my dumbass.

Now, I know I'm just some rando that you've never spoken to before; however, I figured if I was in your shoes, it would be nice to know someone else out there can understand at least a fraction of what I've got to live with.

I also decided to take this opportunity to have a decent post in a thread that wasn't filled with a newbie getting swanton bombed off the top rope a bunch of times.

Good luck with whatever you've got going on.   :)


writing on 9/30/2021 1:05:21 PM

I gotta say, I see this whole thread as an absolute win.


writing on 9/30/2021 12:17:57 PM

Being a good samaritan is a thankless job. :(


writing on 9/30/2021 12:16:38 PM

Ouch, how will I ever recover? Might have to hire a therapist.


Satanic Nazis on 9/30/2021 9:02:59 AM

What makes me laugh is that actual Third Reich nazis would think these people are degenerates and probably wouldn't even let them breed, let alone usher in a new world order. Them hoping to create their own Imperium of Man got a good chuckle out of me though.


Ideas for Stories? on 9/29/2021 10:00:04 AM

There should be a dog somewhere in there too, everybody likes dogs. Could be a talking dog, as long as it stays on all fours I think you're in the clear.


writing on 9/29/2021 8:38:53 AM

I... may have been too hasty. Who knew they made fem Harry Potter landmines to step on these days, truly sinister.


writing on 9/29/2021 8:21:08 AM

My Stuff > Storygames > Edit > Chapters & Pages


Users List Page on 9/28/2021 9:56:14 AM

Haha well... whatever works, just figured the admins would enjoy another way to show they're above us lowly citizens. Not sure how you could stop a swarm of retarded noobs messaging them though...