And one more time today! First, the disclaimers: this is my review. It is likely not like anyone else’s. In fact, you probably couldn’t find anyone else who completely agrees with what I write here. But it’s my opinion. I’m also writing this as I read through this for the first time. These are my first impressions as I read it. I’m not saying they’re right, just what I’m thinking. I haven’t looked at the other reviews or read anything else about this bit before writing this other bit. This is written in the spirit of helping you see how others (okay, me) see your story and to perhaps give you ideas for improvement, and not to be mean or anything else. Please don’t take it personally. This review is likely worth exactly what you paid for it. Finally, you did ask.
Here we go:
The verb tense in the first two sentences hurt. You’re going to have to ask Gower for the official definition if they’re past-present passive whatevers, but my mind is spinning trying to figure out if the action is happening right now or if it happened before. Or what it seems to be: it’s happening in the past except when I read it. I’m not sure how else to explain it. But that’s okay because I’m quickly distracted by the lance on the couch. I mean sure, that might really be a thing: to couch your lance. But I’m not a professional lancer, nor am I actually Lancelot, so I just read that as someone who needs to ride their horse up to a couch and gently set the lance on the couch. And I think I’m the one on the horse. So I’m going to go sit on the couch, too, because that sounds much more enticing and comfortable than being on this horse that can’t decide if I’m in the future or the past. But at least while I took a seat on the couch, somebody hit a target with a stick. Maybe that was Carl.
Oh. Someone hit a little kid with a stick. Ok, at this moment, without reading on yet, I’m now picturing a six-year old kid in a modern-day setting playing with his toys and his little brother. I’m imagining that he has something like a Woody toy and he’s imagining that he’s a knight in the past. His little brother is just five and got smacked in the head by the imaginary lance that was actually a dowel that the kid stole from his dad weeks ago. Dad has been looking for that damn dowel for weeks because he can’t fix the damn broken curtain rod in the laundry room without it and he’s too cheap to go spend the two dollars and twelve cents that it would cost to replace it. But at the same time his damn wife won’t shut up about the sun shining in her eyes when she does HIS laundry (as if she doesn’t do her own damn laundry at the same time). Hell, most of the time he only wears a damn dirty white tank top shirt anyway. And if he doesn’t fix that damn window soon, he’s going to shut her up for good and then the poor kids are going to grow up without a mom or a dad! Damn, this story really took a dark turn, didn’t it? Well, that was what I got out of that one sentence, anyway. I’ll read on now to see if the story meets what I imagined in my brain…
Oh right. I’m the six-year old, the main character. I’m wondering about that statement that I "usually missed." I’m not sure how to take that. If this is just kids in their bedroom playing, there’s no way they would miss, that’s one of the best parts of make-believe! But then again, if it’s actual older kids with real horses and lances, why would I be trying to hit my brother in the head with a lance? That does not sound like a good idea. Maybe I hate him. I mean not as much as my dad hates my mom because of her whining about the damn sun in the laundry room, but why else would I try and hit him in the head with a lance from an actual horse? And wait – I usually miss? That means this is a regular occurrence. Yeah, I honestly don’t know if I’m a kid playing in my room or a person on an actual horse, riding along next to a couch. I now can only picture that I daily tie my younger brother up to a stake in the yard and gallop towards him, seeing if he will die every day.
But hey, I read the next paragraph about mama and the heroes and the sweets, and now I’m back into the room with the little kids again. Dammit. Maybe I’m retarded. Because if I’m a six-year old in my room playing pretend with my lance, there’s no damn way I’m going to miss! That’s like me playing in my backyard with a bat, pretending it’s the bottom of the ninth inning with the bases loaded, two outs, full count… and then I pretend to swing and miss, losing the game. Who does that? Anyway, let’s move on.
Mom is excited about the food, but I have trepidation. I’m not sure where a six-year old learned that word, but apparently I’m a special kind of retard. Am I one of those that has the autism? I learn big words but when I pretend to be a hero, I fail all the time? I’m going to be lots of fun at parties when I’m older, aren’t I? No seriously, while a kid (if this is indeed supposed to be a little kid) could approach the table with trepidation, he wouldn’t know that he was. So when it’s phrased, “You approach the table with trepidation,” it reads like I know that I’m doing that and I don’t think that works. If I’m totally off-base and the kid is 18 or something, I guess that’s okay.
My life is a load of pants. Like, an entire load? What is a load of pants? It sounds fun. Oh wait, did you mean something to do with a load IN my pants? Because that’s a whole different thing. I guess it could work if written, “…life was like someone took a load in…” no, that doesn’t work, either. I think you might be better off leaving the pants out of this one. Maybe, especially if it is a little kid, his life could be like a load of poo.
Okay, that paragraph threw me for a loop again. Nobody treated me with respect. Well, except for my mom (despite her complaining about the damn sunlight, even I’m getting tired of it by now) who just called me to dinner quite nicely. Oh, and I’m the little boy; well, except apparently I have a little brother who I either almost kill every day or fail to imagine myself hitting him with the missing dowel on a daily basis. Though I do get the lack of sweets.
I had to read the bit with the conversation twice to get it. I finally understood that after the break above, the little brat was complaining about me hitting him in the head. Well, when dad is done with mom, me and him are… uh, I mean… I guess where I lost that was because of the break. If there are two kids playing and one gets hit in the head, I’d expect him to go running off to complain to mom before anything else happened. Even if it was right when mom called us to dinner, I’d expect that to be an immediate action, taking place before I have time to approach the table or feel sorry for myself.
Huh. So let me get this right: whiny little brother complains (as he always does). Mom gives him a kiss. Everything is fine. BAM, from behind, older brother is physically dragged away from the table. No food for you, ya bastard! Well I guess since dad is still plotting on killing mom, this family is messed up, anyway. And there’s the damn load of pants again. I suppose the “load of pants” could be a running joke that I’m not getting, but I think that could be set up better in advance (or maybe it is, in another part of the story I’m not seeing yet). I like that it came back again, but I’m still picturing a pallet of pants when I read it. And I do like the last paragraph. That’s good, descriptive, and I can tell what’s going on, even if I am a six-year old autistic moron who strikes out in the bottom of the ninth inning.
So hey, I’m not sure that helped at all, but it is what it is. I hope you enjoyed it and it helps you see what I saw when I read it. Good luck with the story and thank you for sharing!