Zero, The Novelist
Hm, now what?
I'm 21 years old, as of Jan 23, 2013, and I'm a student at University of California, Santa Barbara. I'm studying Philosophy and will be graduating in June of 2014. After that, I'm considering grad school for a masters/phd eventually, in order to become a professor in philosophy, which is my passion. Or, I may take the LSAT and try to find a decent law school.
Funny thing, the reason I decided to become a philosophy major in the first place, was because someone on this site - wish I remembered exactly who - said something about being, or giving the argument of, a "master philosopher." Jokingly, obviously haha. But I considered what it'd even be like to be a "philosopher" (I don't even think I knew what it meant really), and after realizing it's what I love to do, I figured that's exactly what I wanted to do with my life. haha That, and some external factors, school and all, but that comment certainly initiated the process.
I love writing, and I feel that I've developed as a writer here, definitely. When I first arrived at CYS in 2007, I was terrible. Absolutely, ridiculously terrible. Haha Over the years, however, I feel like I've grown to become a part of this community and as a writer.
And thanks to the creators, admins, and members of this site who made this place kickass these past few years. haha
-- Isaac (Zero)
This is a game, about... You... If you were some random guy. Sounds fun, ya? You!, is just a weird game were a bunch of stupid things happen to you. LOTS of stupid stuff. Golf balls and claustrophobia galore in You!Different things happen to you in ever link.... but be warned.... I warn you..... of an old man..... Ok? Have fun.
Gilles de Rais, the French noble and soldier, born in the early fifteenth century, is considerably the most prolific serial killer in history. He lived, one could say, both extremes:
He fought along side of Joan of Arc, the young girl, who claimed to have spoken to God, that led France to victory against the British. She was a warrior of God, given her exceptional military success. De Rais fought along side her, he was her special guard, and some believed that he even loved her, or rather, what she represented.
On the other hand, when she was wounded in battle, he turned his back on her, and as a result, she was ultimately burned alive. Afterward, he began a life of evil. He began familiarizing himself with Alchemy, Mysticism, Black Magic, Satanism, and things of the like, finding great pleasure in mutilating people, mainly young children...
He lived and died a devil and a saint. This is the life and crimes of Gilles de Rais.
You must defend your Forum Board against invading Noobs. They're just so damn persistent!... Do you have what it takes to clear the board of these nuisances, or will you let it fall into the hands of annoying, ungrammatical, unintelligent noobs? Get rid of them at any cost.
You live in a town full happy people.... and you want them all dead.
Recent PostsRecent Problems on 9/22/2013 3:23:02 AM
Hey Bo, I'd be uncomfortable speaking to anything I have no idea about lol, but first off - that sucks, I hope you find out what's up and that it's easily fixed. Obviously, don't take this as any sort of medical advice, but I personally have had problems with antidepressants - lexapro and citalopram - in that I simply can't stand them. It seems they just bog me down mentally, like some sort of come-down pill that urges me to stare blankly at the walls. If that wasn't enough, they did nothing for my depression, and so it is for me... maybe you've had better experiences?
As an alternative (which I happened to stumble upon by accident), I found these diet/exercise pills loaded with caffeine, "ephedra extra (seeds and leaves)," and other junk on Amazon and they had what felt like the exact opposite effect. Mind was clear, mood significantly elevated, drive and focus were up.... they were pretty freakin amazing. haha Bad if you have heart problems though, because it increases your heart rate but lowers your blood pressure, they can cause fatigue and dizziness, all kindsa nasty stuff (usually a bad idea to take more than one). Wouldn't do a thing for your T levels, but this is just my kinda way around depression and fatigue in the past, and boy did it work for me. lol
As far as T levels go, and everything else for that matter haha, I'd probably trust a doctor to determine what's best.. wouldn't wanna go screwin' anything up lol. But there's of course all kinds of stuff on the interwebs about X raises your T levels.. I'm not sure how legit most of their claims are, though a bit a research helps, but you could also find something for that. However, since your aim is to get at the root of the problem, I don't think any of that is for you. haha
Favorite Character Interactions? on 8/30/2013 12:52:42 PM
Favorite Character Interactions? on 8/30/2013 12:51:46 PM
There are a few, I'd imagine. Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein. Uhh, unless you're asking about a woman who wrote a version of Strange Case
Favorite Character Interactions? on 8/30/2013 12:40:51 PM
My favorite character interaction, or at least the one that sticks out most prominently in my mind in this moment, is between Doctor Frankenstein and his creature. Particularly, in Danny Boyle's production of Frankenstein for the Royal National Theatre. I had to go watch this play for a class I took freshman year in college, and it was the most amazing thing I'd ever experienced, haha as far watchables goes. The characters were so brilliantly performed!.. I had no idea this had happened, but in the middle of the play, the lead actors playing Frankenstein and his creature actually switch roles and whoever was playing the creature in the first half would now be playing Frankenstein in the second. These guys were so good, I didn't even notice the change.
But that aside, the entire thing was just amazing. As it begins, you see the birth of the creature from inside some sort of cocoon, where his adult mind is for the time flooded with sensations and experience of life and the world. There's fear, shock, and curiosity on his face - he's like an infant. But, in this play, he learns extraordinarily quickly as he wanders about the world (though, remember, he's still a "monster" and will be treated as one). In a matter of minutes, he's crawling, starts to walk and fumble about, and run... And the most exciting aspect of the character is that he has a voice, and as he navigates within his world he questions and wonders, innocently at first, but when he experiences violence and hatred, and eventually a neglect or dereliction from god or his "creator," Frankenstein (who he meets later), he becomes bitter and menacing (though it's questionable how blameworthy he actually is). But it's when he and Frankenstein meet that he delivers the most powerful lines. He's become well knowledged in religious dealings, philosophical works, etc, and he wants to meet his creator and ask him real shit. haha Frankenstein himself is whole other kind of dickbag, and he is awesome as well.
Watching that was like putting my mind in a blender for 3 and a half hours, but.. like, in a really good way. haha
Favorite Character Interactions? on 8/30/2013 12:16:22 PM
I loved House! Still do, in fact. haha I disagree that the show got crappy over time though. I'm actually in the opposite camp; I thought the earlier episodes weren't nearly as good as some of the later ones. Particularly, early on the character of House wasn't very well developed and it appeared as though the writers just wanted to create a base jerk-off smart guy... or, like they knew what they wanted, but the voice of House (as the character was written) was just lazily done. Wilson was a generic nice guy, House was a generic smart asshole, the crew was okay.. but, I don't know, I couldn't get into because as I watched the show, all I heard were decent actors working off of a poor script. And I know I shouldn't expect to have great depth and personality shine through every character on the first few episodes (or seasons, sometimes), but it's not like it can't be done - The Walking Dead comes to mind. I thought their characters were brilliantly written, in that they came off as real human beings (bar the second episode, where Andria and the rest were also kind of written stock stereotype-somethings, though they came to develop very very quickly throughout that short 6 episode season).
Anyway, but as House progressed, I thought it reached a decent leveling off, where I was now actually invested in the characters and the early crew, being that they were more relatable in the fluidity of their characters. Nothing too deep or intense, but I bought the idea that they were people and not just actors reading lines. And finally, toward the end, when people around House start dying, people he pretends not to care about, you see him fall deeper into his misery. His addiction grows stronger, his internal conflicts are more powerful and taxing on him, and it shows really well, I think. He's torn between his outward appearance and his inner desires, and it often takes him to the point where is don't-give-a-fuck meter malfunctions and he becomes self-destructive. I thought the later seasons, at least as far as the character of House goes, were freakin excellent. haha
Favorite Character Interactions? on 8/30/2013 11:53:39 AM
Hey, Seth! I saw a trailer for We Need to Talk About Kevin a good while back, and I think I went so far to actually download the movie since it seemed like an interesting premise, but I also think I deleted it without ever watching it. haha Maybe I will now.
As for The Following, I don't wanna ask too much about it, and everything mentioned aside, would you say it's worth watching? At least, if I do, is it likely that I'll be disappointed? haha
And so it begins... on 8/26/2013 1:38:45 PM
Yea.. bills, debt, and work as a contractor (as opposed to employment) which is far less stable. Finaid system is kind of doodoo, and if you've kept up with recent events as far as higher education goes, ya know that congress is in no way interested in protecting students... sighh
And so it begins... on 8/26/2013 1:28:21 PM
Awesome to hear, Bo. Playa, also awesome in its own way haha. I'm in a similar situation as October at the moment from what I can tell. My last year at UCSB went pretty well and I was looking forward to finishing up my last 40.5 units and graduating, but it's been the same old story for me my whole time at this school - no financial aid. I'm even mad anymore, haha. Each year previously, I had at least gotten tuition knocked off my bill, but since I was denied even the CalGrant this year for the first time (10-12k covering tuition) I decided that it was in my financial best interest to withdraw for the year, get a job, and apply for aid next year under independent status from my parents. That way their income - I should say apparent income - doesn't affect my ability to get finaid, and that extra money for tuition plus anything else I would have otherwise had to pay to go this year (in loan payments over several years) will be hopefully just be awarded to me next year and I won't have to worry about it.
Problem now is just getting that job, but I'm a pretty lazy dude too, so it's just about getting over that hump for me. And going back next year should be breeze... also, that's partly the reason I think I found time to jump back on CYS. haha
Emails from 1999 found on computer. on 4/27/2013 1:30:50 PM
That email was a joy to read haha
Megazine #2 on 4/21/2013 12:22:53 PM
I must have still been floating behind the background noise of space when this came out. We were all more lighthearted then, I think. I like it. And then there were periods where the exact opposite was true, where we'd go off on novel-esk rants, argue a point down to its bear bones, make the case for FREEDOM.. lol good times. I miss those days, like I was much more impassioned then. I've certainly mellowed out more, which has been good in many ways, makes like much easier, calmer, clearer, but also I feel like I'm.. mm, I don't wanna say jaded, but I'm definitely different. I don't feel any less able to argue a point, or less desire to argue when the opportunity presents itself, but I guess I don't care so much about the result of the argument. Before I think I legitimately cared that people had unexamined views and views held for dumb reasons, whereas now.. it's like whatever, haha, if you wanna be dumb you can be dumb. And also there's a lot more opportunity to surround myself with people who use their brains as an adult than I had as a kid in high school. haha But man, those were wild times lol