I will not.

Thinking it over, I have realized that this will improve nothing—in fact, it would only serve to do more harm.

So no, I will not. And the essay? Deleted. Gone. In the recycle, and the recycle emptied. I regret having ever put any work towards trying to please you lot, considering how pointless it all ends up being.

If you're talking about the essay, I'm 400 words in—I was not kidding, and I will not flake out anymore. I plan on writing the rest of it this evening in the library.

Look, I have said what I needed to say regarding your latter points. I will not apologize for my tastes in VN, and while I do argue that it is not comprised of lolis, I will not go out of my way to try to change your opinions on the matter. If you still find my reasoning to be flawed after hearing it, then so be it. There's nothing more I can do on the matter.

Now, my laziness I do feel ashamed of, and I do sincerely apologize for every time I was unable to meet a deadline or to review as many stories as I said I would. I try to make sure my stories are no less than perfect in my vision before releasing, and I guess that also causes me to make waste to functional, if ugly, drafts.
   I do try to improve—but I say that a lot; all I can really do now is to actually act on it, and by all means, I do. If you think I'm a low, disgusting person, then I do hope to eventually earn back some of your former respect (or more accurately, tolerance).

I don't think you, of all people, should be trying to call me out on anything. Do you even know a fraction of the details behind what you are trying to call me out on?

I beg to differ—with the right words, I'm sure I could change all your opinions. In fact, I'm completely positive that I can clear my name in only a fraction of that word count: one-tenth, a mere one thousand words to be exact.

Lawyers make their living with cases almost just like this, and they can clear the names of their clients going only off of established fact and law, so I don't see why I wouldn't be able to.

Although you may still have a point: even if I clear my name, I would still be known as "That lolicon", up to and after the next big scandal here. Regardless, I will not embrace the grave—not yet, anyway, and not from this.

I thought it was my complete laziness that has gotten me killed there?
Oh well, I'm dead either way.

Anyways, while I could write an entire essay explaining why I am not a lolicon, I would still have my insurmountable laziness to answer to, and I don't think I could so easily explain why I am as lazy, unorganized, or uninspired as I am.

Either way, I guess I will lay low over the next several months—not for I am at all ashamed of my tastes in visual novel, nor for I am at all unwilling to stand by my own words, actions, and decisions—no; if anything, it would be my inability to adhere to any sort of writing schedule that prompts such a decision.

Perhaps soon I will be given the opportunity again to face the people of the Discord server like I was once able to, but if not, I guess all is just as well; I can write just as well without the distraction (although I would certainly miss some of the more interesting times on the server).

Until then, I guess I will be alternating between reviews, writing, and unintended wasting of time. Just like old times.

It hurts to think that you hold me to such low esteem.

Oh shit, I was half kidding for most of it, but that makes your reaction all the funnier.

Anyways, I shall address your points in earnest.

> Exaggeration? Isn't that when you add that squiggly line (~) in approximability equations ( π ~ 3 )?
> I will happily tell One that they are fucktarded and lack evidence.
> Honestly, I rarely heard the word Ignorance used before 2016
> It truly is a commendable effort as I said. In fact, I'm glad you're reaching out to others. I also support the lad's dream of being a writer, there's nothing wrong with that. He does have hope though; you might be right on that part. For the time being, I retract my statement on that part.

Oh, a direct question.
I feel like if people want to be helped—and if they are willing to improve themselves—they will gladly take the advice of others. With that in mind, I realize this person is doing exactly that; and to that extent, I feel I was too hasty in my judgment. I have seen too many others who simply dig their own graves without suspecting anything is wrong, but there have been exceptions. Helping others was never the wrong thing to do—and I never intended to imply that—just that not everyone will benefit and heed your advice. This may be an exception, and on that note, you have helped a member of this community.

Wow, that is indeed direct.

My answer? None; I do not masturbate to children.
Now, if you were to rephrase that as, "How many non-pornographic images of cartoon women of age did you jerk off to this week?" My answer would probably be... this week...  2 in one session—not really at the beginning of it, but I will count it regardless.

My justification? They are not children, they do not look like children, and they do not have any relevance to children. Just because they have a B or A cup doesn't mean they are underage! I don't get off to underage characters, damn it (I'm not Kiel)!

As for my activity on the site this past week... I will admit, it was lacking. I was working on my IS story entry, but I put reviews on pause to focus on that. I have put maybe 4 hours on it this week, which is less than I would have liked, but it's a start from absolute laziness.

I have done that too many times now.

I would turn in my zero draft—which is in every respect a complete story—but it is unpolished; riddled with poor word choice, and often fails to retain the mood I have set for it.

Ironically, the poetic style I have written the story in actually makes every other page an absolute chore to read.
In other words, my choices are to either flake (once again) or to submit a story that fails to entertain—which is, to me, the very purpose of creative literature.