Damn, I'm really sorry. Wish I could give some encouraging words or something, but I'm afraid that time is the only thing that'll help. There's no real right or wrong way to deal with grief and everybody deals with it in different ways. I lost my brother a couple of years ago, and looking back, I really don't know how I got through it, but I did. You just have to take it one day at a time. I think the only advice I can think to give is don't bottle things up, it'll come back to bite you in the ass later down the line. Also, don't feel like you have to act or feel a certain way. If at any point you just feel like, "Fuck it, I can't cry anymore, I just want to watch a movie and forget about everything," then do it. Do whatever you feel you need to do at the time. If you feel like you need to talk to people then talk to people, and if you feel like you need to be alone, then be alone. If you need to cry then cry, and if you want to be happy for awhile, then do something that makes you happy. Try to spend time with the other members of your family and help them to get through this, but also make sure you take care of yourself. No one else is suffering any more than you are right now, so just focus on doing whatever it is you need to do to cope.