Well, I am surprised it upset me as bad as it did. What information I have shared here, and there is very much commonly known about me. Trust me, I have not gotten near as sensitive and in depth into my life as I could. What I have had said here is really not invasive in my view, but I guess your right. It depends on who you ask. I have had the night to think about it, and spoke to a staff member that was very nice to me and always has been. However, I decide something after we spoke.
I am not a very good writer. However, I am published and do have a small group of fans. They are happy with my work and what I share. It has been very fulfilling and healing for me. I write as much for who is reading my work as I am for myself. When I am writing for my group of fans, I can be very open, within reason. I have always been a very feeling, loving and empathic person.
The more I think about it the more I find it upsetting that I was in some way made to feel bad about being who i am. I had specifically touched on the topic discussing personal things with the person in question at which point he said that it was fine. He was comfortable with whatever I was. The group was role play, it is new. it is called Oasis. The person I spoke to this morning was very kind. She always has been. It is only a couple of people that have shunned me, and they have done so because I am too open from my understanding.
I was bewildered by it, because I have never run into any major static. Most people had always appreciated my stories, as well as what I shared. Then you add I had asked him if doing so was okay and he said it was totally fine. I still find what he found offensive or over sharing bizarre.
Yes I agree I do try to keep in mind the age group I may or may not be dealing with. This guy is early thirties, or late twenties. I can't remember his exact age. Also, I do not like drama, I do not cope with it well as you can see. I do agree that sharing too much can indeed cause drama. Even now I may have over shared and possibly cause hurt feelings. I care very much about peoples feelings. However, normally i am not this sensitive about rejection. The last year has been the pits. Anyone that was my friend right now, I would feel bad for. It would be a lot to be friends with me at this stage of my life. I am not in a great state of mind. I have suffered a great deal of loss recently. i would put a massive amount of expectations, although it unintentional on that person's shoulders. I recognize that, and I need to fix me.
I do not exactly think that it was fair how i have been treated, but it was not unreasonable now that I look back at it. Given the situation I may have reacted the same way in their shoes. I am normally a very self confident person As I stated the last year has changed my life completely.
Thanks to you and every one else for talking me thru this, and helping me grapple it. Who knew you would all end up beng someone's counselor when you signed up. You should not have to, but I very much appreciate it.
Oracle.