Victim, do you not know how CYOA works? You get to control the actions of your character, but you don't create the character! Unless you're playing some CoGite shitfest where you can create a character down to the most minute detail, you are playing a game in the viewpoint of the CHARACTER. The character is not you, and the character may have different opinions - and different thoughts.
I actually can't explain this well enough, I didn't think someone would be so fucktarded that I would have to. Anyways, the moral of the story here is that you control the character's actions, not his thoughts.
Was going to shit on your lack of storygames, but you actually have quite a few published.