I would suggest retreating from the forums if you're going to whine about the impression you're making or worse, try to defend yourself from being called stupid (not that you've done the latter, but covering my bases here).
Go read, rate, and review some storygames in need with all this free time! Then work on writing a story yourself.
You haven't really done anything heinously wrong yet, but you've not started off on the right foot, no. I'd recommend reading a few site etiquette articles as well as pinned forum posts before saying more.