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Hi! Gatekeeperrose here. Or tacocat/fanofluffstuff/crashanddive. I don't remember what all I've gone by here lol. 

Honestly I don't remember jack about this site, despite having been here for like 6 or 7 years now. Yay dissociative amnesia! Lots of shit was going on while I was here so most things were just wiped in general. Just recently remembered this site was a thing tho, and I have Stories I want to write. For realzies this time, instead of having a bunch of shitty barely-started blobs of bleh.

I don't remember who I've pissed off, or who is a Chill Person, or anything like that, and I don't really feel like slogging through the hundreds of different pm conversations with different people on my past accounts to find out. Really hoping that I didn't do one of those cringy-ass "rage quit" things, cause if I did, I genuinely don't remember why. I feel like I just more flat out forgot that this place existed. 

So everyone is pretty much a new slate! I remember that endmaster is scary, and mizal is a chill person I think. Ford has a bunch of accounts and does cool stuff. bradindvorak (has? had?) an awesome profile with a tacocat setting and does code stuff. Something with strawberry pudding vs sporks. Warrior cats invasion. jjj is cool and intimidating and had that awesome commander(?) rp game but then the rp forum was yeeted out the window. uhm. coins? Or does he have a new name? I think he has a new name now? *shrugs* That's p much 95% of what I remember of this site. 

Also the story editor is a lot different than what I remember so that's been tripping me up a lot. And I feel like I have to relearn e v e r y t h i n g. Probably going to be asking the same questions in the advanced editor forum that I asked 3 years ago. Or however long it's been since I've been here. 

Ah. Going to college now, for video game design. Which feels really weird to say, especially since I originally joined this site back in middle school. wow. Also I'm genderfluid(?) now so *jazz hands* I'm a spehshul shnowflakeeeee bleh. I don't really care about pronouns. She/He/It/They all work, or the overall term 'shit' covers it very nicely.

teal deer: I don't remember anything, and I'm an adult now. 

Well shit. Yeah I can definitely see how the amnesia thing would seem shady as fuck then. I don't really know what to say to that, I'm sorry. I mean, I could see if I could dig up my diagnosis papers if you want the proof. And feel free to ask questions and stuff, I'm pretty open to talking about it. Or at least, I try to be. 

Like, I remembered quite a bit of Bad Mod Kiel but I was gonna leave that as part of the 5% I remember but didn't mention cause that was a shitshow that I was definitely on the wrong side of. But I really don't remember the pm campaign, or why the fuck I'd do that cause 3J is chill.

yeahhhhhhh. I was rlly stupid. I didn't really understand pedo or why it was bad at that point in time, and like I was still talking with him quite a while after he asked me if I was romantically interested in him (this being over a year ago, when I still wasn't even close to 18 yet). And just like, the whole thing was a mess, especially after he made it feel like my tiny self was solely responsible for keeping him from committing suicide and shit man that really messes with you, especially when the entire rest of your life is falling apart. Don't remember too much other than that of Bad Mod Kiel tho. 

If I could go back in time with my understanding of things now, I'd have done things waaaaayyyyy differently. 

Edit: Just realized that like, most people understand serious topics like that at a much younger age. So the factors in that, in no particular order, 1) I'm asexual, I never really thought about that aspect of things I was just thinking 'glorified friends' 2) Autism! Because there isn't enough that's fucked up with me as is. And like, the fact that I wasn't diagnosed until 17 really says something about how shitty my parents were. I didn't want to add it to my original post cause it'd make me seem like more of a special snowflake, more than what that joke would actually cover 3) cause of autism, kiel was part of my hyperfixation at that time, which was suuuuuuuper bad. It basically made my brain ignore the bad things and explain it away, and of course everything kiel did was okay. Which is. Possibly one of the worst things I could've ever done. And lead to a whole bunch of Shit. Really really shitty shit going on with kiel that tanked my mental health that I couldn't get away from until my hyperfixation switched to something else. Currently my hyperfixation is Vampires and Spellcasters and Shapeshifters tho.

wait I actually wrote a story hold up

Edit: holy fuck I do have a published story. how did I forget that??? jeezus. Also hi! I probably should have started with that wup I just got distracted. And I know better than to tag admins, especially endmaster. endmaster scares me. 

yeah... that was... yeah that was bad. Regretfully, that's something I actually do remember doing. thanks for reminding me about that so I can delete it. archive it while you can lol.

Edit: they're gone now. yay! Well, the seto/kiel shit. Regret making that 100% cause ...yeah. Anyway, if ya'll wanna see the Good Furry Art then I can throw the links here pfft. 

Well, I mean, I got these two accounts that I think have p decent art on 'em. *shrug* but I guess you'll have to take someone's word for it.

There's a good mix of furries, skeletons, humans, and whatever else I felt like drawing. But like, it ain't sexualized at all, it's just fluffy characters doing things. Like I got one with galexy-like fur, horns, scaley forearms/feet, and a random red and orange octopus tentacle out of her back that I've drawn a few times. I just think they're more fun to draw than boring as fuck humans. 

Cool and improved? pffffft I think not. I'm complete Trash. 

There is such thing as good furry art. This isn't it. She is a lot better than years and years ago, which is more than I can say for most. And she's actually pretty good at shading. There are people who pay their bills with commissions who don't color quite as well as this. I think all this skeleton-sona nonsense has improved her anatomy by a lot, but now she's making OCs that are half-Undertale-skeleton half-male-versions-of-the-lesbian-Night-in-the-woods Alligator and that's about as quality as can be expected.  As far as standouts in the skeleton department go, she made her own Magic the Gathering card out of her particular Skeleton Boy that wears a trumpet glued to his yamulkah or whatever.

She does partake in furrism, but it's tangential. Her dealio seems to be mostly in creating basically purple/whatever other fur color humans with ears and a tail, as well as the ones that exist in undertale because that's what I assume to be her thing. But, more especially, her particular fursona thing is a creature that like, strikes the weird middle ground between anthro and feral which is an increasingly popular trend, but imo it just makes them look kinda like a fursuit even though they're a drawing, because they look alien but in a limitted way, and not human enough to be a twist on humanity. I like the stripy tongue and the fact that it kinda opens up like the monster from Inhumanoids, but there's a general miasma about the overall design that doesn't sit well with me. Mileage may vary. There's also a sphinx/chimera thing with what I believe might be a human face, has some axolotl ears. That's pretty metal I think, but not really in the vane of furry art.

I'll hand it to her that when she's putting in effort, she's really really good at drawing goop and flappy skin. But then the description makes it cliche. I mean, embodying angst and negativity as slime that pulls at you is a trope as old as spiderman, and aside from looking cool this is not a particularly interesting take on the concept. That aside, it's far and away the best image in this gallery, insanely so. It's certainly in her style, but looks nothing like the other stuff in her gallery.

I don't know what I did to piss you off, and I'm sorry. But can you please just fucking stop? 

Also: turns out my last disappearance wasn't a rage quit! http://chooseyourstory.com/Member/?Username=crashanddive

Last posts - "did someone say comic sans?" and "THE GREAT PAPYRUS IS CLEARLY SUPERIORER TO WHATEVER WINGDINGS IS."  no long rants or declarations of goodbye. (this is just my last disappearance - not talking about any before that)

What can I say? Undertale is a good game *shrug*. Fandom is a bit much tho, and I was definitely pulled in too deep for a while there wup. Like, the art is cool but eeeeehhhh probably should have redirected that effort into something more original. 

Last time I remember you getting into it with anyone on the forums was with Steve and Malk since they were pissed that you were narcing on your drug addict classmates.

Probably don't need to worry about them two though now seeing as Steve isn't really around anymore and Malk is banned.

Sounds like something I'd do. 

And what did malk do to get banned?

Being a massive faggot basically.

Though I've offered to unban him since, but he said he would only want to be unbanned if he wrote an epic story. Which pretty much means never.

EDIT: Yeah, yeah, he got "better."

Also, hello, welcome back!

Hi! Glad to see you're still here!

I'm setting up the basics right now! I have 15 pages created on cys, most of which are the codex (character refs so I have a place to put my drawing of them without shoving it in the face of the reader, worldbuilding that provides more explanation but not necessary for the story, random Extra Things pretty much. You could go the whole playthrough without opening it once if you don't want to.) 

Also a character selection page, inspired by the Homo Perfectus (4?5?) where characters are unlockable and give a new perspective on the story, and trying to figure out the variables there. Having to read through all the articles again. 

4 completed pages of the main story line, as well as 3-ish half finished ones, and an outline for where the rest of the main story line goes. The branching paths are mostly in the ideas stage though, nothing quite as solid. 

Hi, I am newer than you and sorry to  enter in your thread like to do spam but I ended in IS a contest with a game full integrated for animal people and some furries mecha  and all that stuff so I thought you could be the right person to give me feedback.

https://infinite-story.com/story/intro.php?id=1989

Hello, welcome back to the site! You probably won't recognize me, but welcome back regardless. 

I don't recognize you, but thanks for the welcome back! \o/ 

Thanks! I'm really excited.

Did you somehow become even gayer in your absence?

yes

Hopefully you can avoid your supposed amnesia again. Imagine you forgetting the existence of this site! That would be something, wouldn't it? Haha :)

I hope I don't either, haha.

Fingers crossed! 

I wish we could add reactions to the posts here too like on discord 

oh same. ford's thing would've gotten a thumbs up for sure. 

I'd set the counter for probably 2 months. If I ain't gone by then, then you're all prolly gonna be stuck with me for a long time. 

That's kinda really long time

It's the source of all our culture.

This seems like a trainwreck waiting to happen. And suddenly, I can't look away.

Waiting to happen? It happened the moment my parents fell in love over World Of Warcraft. I am a trainwreck. 

I am now questioning everything my parents ever told me, thank you mizal. 

”Had,” for better or worse. Welcome back.

Oh no! it's gone! What happened?

Yeah, scripts and CSS were taken off of profiles in an update a while ago. Sad day.

Too bad that I definitely haven't gone and found other little ways to add a bit of interactivity in there every now and then...

I forgot my old password and instead of clicking the "I forgot my password" button I made a new account. Very logical thing to do.

less logical than getting your old account back

yup, that was the joke

I dont believe that was a joke at all...but okay

Welcome back. I think your art work is interesting.  Your style is very cool. Your talented. I have some art on deviant, but not near as blessed as you are.  I apologize, but I often don't understand some of the humor of this generation. The authors here work hard to produce the work published to this sight.  Their annoyance I think is more about respect and treating the tasks required here as a  game.  Which technically I suppose it is a game. End and his group, demand more out of you.  They demand it and expect the best from you or be shamed. These people offer lessons that are important to your survival  believe it or not. I, myself, am on the shit list as I have done exactly as you did. Minus the ragexit?  I digress.  I was caught up in myself and did not set aside time as I should have to complete the tasks I committed to. I harm no one but myself, but it is offensive to those that work hard at their craft.  Some come by it easier than others grant it. What I  am getting at, I am not going to make excuses. I suck donkey balls. I will work on my stories quietly now, and prove that I deserve to be here.  We are glad your back I assure you. At the moment everyone might be skeptical until they see your follow thru on things.  This is how I imagine I may be viewed.  Or I may be viewed in a harsher light. I am unsure. It doesn't matter. What is done is done. My name is Oracle by the way. I look forward to reading you work. 

M. 

Thanks, but I think you're being a little overly dramatic, buddy. It's just taking me a while to adjust to CYS people since I've been hanging out with gays and the equivalent of cog-ites for the past year.

No.

I have only ever had this account, 2 years old now apparently. It feels like just yesterday i made my first post. 

Well you just lost it in seconds.

Feels like just a few moments ago I told you to shut the fuck up, I’m so glad you ignored the warning.